Halloween is a pretty special day for me. It marks another year gone by since the day I was born.
Today records year 45.
Age has never really bothered me. I've never felt the need to lie about how old I am. As a teen, I never “updated” my license to make it past a bouncer and my wardrobe does not reflect a desperate need to be “Forever 21.” I've always owned the age I am at the moment.
I like being in my 40's. It's been a time of growth and self-reflection these past 5 years. I've learned to really be thankful for all that I have; my health, a wonderful husband who loves me and whom I adore, two great kids that make me so incredibly proud, a warm & welcoming home and a career of pursuing my passions of writing & photography that fills my every day with happiness.
I've learned to let go of things that are toxic; family & friend relationships that brought more heartache than happiness do not have a place in my daily life. No more trying to please everyone at the cost of what was good for me and my family. It's too exhausting and quite frankly, I'm just so over it.
Because this year seems a bit different in that for the first time, the sense of fleeting time is present. I feel as though I have arrived at the 50 yard line in the game of life and there are still a lot of things left to do. At the end of each day I want to be sure I can say to myself I squeezed the most out of every hour, making sure it was not wasted away. I will admit, that is hard to accomplish every day, but if I can have a majority of “today was a good day”, then I still chalk it up as a goal met.
Life at 45 is good but I want the next 45 to be better.
That is what I will be wishing as I blow out my candle today.
I'm linking this post up with my friend Shell. She has a great meme every week that you should check out!